This summer has been a big for me, not because anything happened, but because I’ve given myself time for nothing to happen. So Zen 😉 I’ve fought the temptation to teach workshops, develop new manuals, write an article, contact more studios, make a video, or take educational courses. I made a commitment to do less and play more this summer. Here’s why:
When I was 24 I made a declaration to have a “mid-life-crisis” every morning. Instead of waiting another 20 years (or for a life-threatening moment) to wake up, I wanted to awaken every morning and earnestly ask:
By the end of June I couldn’t fully say yes to the first question. This stumped me. It had been such a fruitful year with an abundant yoga therapeutics practice with people I truly enjoy and see growth in. I played at the edge of my comfort zone as I created and guided anatomy & therapeutics teacher trainings that have since helped people to quit their day jobs and teach full time! 2015 looks to repeat and surpass 2014, but if I’m feeling zonked, I need to step back and adjust.
Additionally adjustments revolve around the two big, fabulous, and packed questions Steve and I have sitting on our plate:
Where are we going to live after he graduates this June?
When do we want to start building our family?
Needless to say, we’ve taken time to stop, slow down, and listen. Simply asking these questions forced us to recognize our mutual need to better manage our energy so that we have some left in the tank for each other and life itself.
At first we talked about moving into the city part time, but it meant I’d have to cut back on many of our sessions 🙁 So instead, Steve is making changes in the way he is going to approach his day and the number of patients he’ll see. I too need to make some changes.
This isn’t a breakup letter! In fact, it’s a “welcome to a new home” letter.
I began having visions of opening a Yoga Therapeutics studio on LI about 4 months ago. I imagined training other yoga teachers who would also come with their own skills and talents. The studio would have all the props needed, an online scheduling and payment system, and a peaceful uplifting vibe. If I were away teaching, it’d be easy to find another qualified teacher to sub in. That would mean more support and consistency for you!
Daydream and you shall receive.
The owner of Absolute Yoga has invited us to share her space! I decided to take the offer yesterday and rent the adjoining studio. I hope you’ll come along.
I think it’ll be good for the both of us.
If Steve and I do chose to move or have a child in the next year, this studio will offer the perfect space for teachers (who can support your specific needs) to come and observe our sessions. This way you are supported and comfortable in any transition that may or may not occur.
Many of you have been asking for earlier time spots. My hope is that this efficient straight forward schedule will offer that.
Scheduling will be easier as will payments.
Thank you for your support and all of our sessions thus far! It’s been a gift to me.
We’ll of course talk more in person; I wanted to start the conversation with a clear explanation.
With gratitude and trust,
“When we love, we strive to become better than we are… when we strive to become better than we are, everything around us becomes better, too.” – Paul Coelho The Alchemist
It was the end of a full day of yoga therapeutics. I was on my way home to meet my hubby for dinner. Usher came on the radio, “Caught Up!” I couldn’t help it- I obviously had to turn it up, sing loud, and out of tune.
Perhaps my car likes my singing as much as my dog. To get me to stop it threw itself into a winter pothole! Probably its best option. The whole car got jolted- I stopped singing. Excuse the pun, but I was “caught up” with a flat tire in frigid 6 degree weather last night. (Balmy if you’re from Minnesota!)
Stick with me for a moment: Did you know that this weekend, Feb 1st, is Imbolc? What? Imbolc. The day smack dab in between Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox. It represents fertility, new growth, and the beginning of the light half of the year. Yippee!!
This incident happening near Imbolc caused me to pause and ask myself (and you!) this:
What do I get caught up in?
Is it knocking me off my course?
I get caught up in all my “should do’s,” and as much as I’d like to think I’m mindful to keep balanced sometimes I need to be jolted to an alerting stop.
New Year’s asks: How can you nourish the core of who you are NOW??
Imbolc follows it up a month later saying- PAY ATTENTION. Notice where energy is unnecessarily caught up and steering you off course. Make room and take notice of all the amazing opportunities there are to nourish your soul (inclusive of true work).
Nourishment is not a static goal, it’s a living checkpoint that helps create clarity and direction.
My challenge for you:
Step One: Are you caught up in anything that’s throwing you off track?
Step Two: For the next three days ask yourself before making any commitments to yourself or others, does this nourish me?
(food, exercise, social gatherings, bed time, travel, business opportunities etc)
Step Three: Check in with how you feel.
Step Four: Repeat!
Imbolc is the time in between the Winter Solstice and Spring Equinox. It represents fertility, new growth, and the beginning of the light half of the year.
A teaching story from an elder NorthwestPacific Native to the child about to take the journey into the thick woodslands.
The question: What do I do when I’m lost in the forest, lost in this transition in life? How do I find my way?
David Wagoner’s response:
Stand still. The trees ahead and bushes beside you
Are not lost. Wherever you are is called Here,
And you must treat it as a powerful stranger,
Must ask permission to know it and be known.
The forest breathes. Listen. It answers,
I have made this place around you.
If you leave it, you may come back again, saying Here.
No two trees are the same to Raven.
No two branches are the same to Wren.
If what a tree or a bush does is lost on you,
You are surely lost. Stand still. The forest knows
Where you are. You must let it find you.
I go back to this poem any time I’m in transition (often) which can be an exciting and unnerving place. I also refer to this poem when I’m feeling stuck, lost, or confused. In all of these circumstances I have the tendency to want to fix it, do more, and busy myself.
Here I’m reminded: STAND STILL. LISTEN. No need to fix. No need to be anyone other than I am, be anywhere other than I am, or try to make a situation other than it is. Instead listen, hear, see, and pay fierce attention to the world.
Listening to something other than ourselves allows us the possibility to receive guidance from the world, to see with greater perspective, opportunities, and creativity. Instead of repeating the same patterns, we make room to grow and follow the right path.
How to stop and listen?
Read first- then try
1) Close your eyes.
2 ) Take a breath. Feel your breath. Is it long, short, expansive, in your chest or your belly, is it sweet? Is there a rhythm? Does it change when you observe it?
3) Can you feel any emotion anywhere in your body? How does it move? How does it feel?
4) If I lost you here- smile…. to pay attention to your inner world- or outer world takes fierce attention and repetitious returns.
5) Open your eyes and gaze softly at the world around you. What do you see, hear, or feel? Stand still.
What is real, is always moving, transforming, and evolving. You must pay attention… listen.
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